The Holistic Autistic Blog

I started a course on “Brain Health” today, which is part of a research study being carried out by CAMH. Incredibly happy to be part of the course and study, but some of the topics discussed were a bit .. heavier and led to some rumination, and more feelings of helplessness as I continue to… Read more: Ruminations…

…is a song by Faithless (heh), and the first line of the first story I wrote from song titles. And it’s pretty upbeat, like the playlist I just put on a few minutes ago; also it inspired this blog post. Without music, life would be a mistake. – Fredrich Nietzsche In 2020, I had a… Read more: God is a DJ

I come out of most hospital visits in what feels like shock, and taken off my ADHD meds, which sometimes get replaced with other medications that are intended to stabilize me. And every time, I fight through severe/paradoxical side effects for months while desperately fighting to have my other conditions seen/treated. In these times, all… Read more: Memories

I have gone crazy a few times now. Manic episode, psychotic break, mental breakdown, whatever the term, I can’t deny it. I’ll refer to them as “episodes”. My awesome neuropsychologist called one a “discrete episode”, which I appreciated. They are one of the few people who didn’t label me with bipolar disorder, and recognized that… Read more: Crazy